I inhaled a big, quavering sigh as my shoulders slumped and a tear made its way down my cheek. How could this day be so terrible already? It’s only 9 a.m.! Another tear slid down my chin, and I finally threw myself on my bed and hosted a personal pity party.
I let my brain run away with me, and I thought about how miserable I was, and how awful the morning was, and how I just wanted to crawl back into bed and forget I ever woke up. And what was this horrible struggle I was going through? What was making my morning feel like World War III? My outfit looked awful, and I didn’t have time to change because this was the tenth outfit I had tried on and I was already late.
The rest of that day, I was constantly thinking about my appearance and paranoid I didn’t look good. I lacked the joy that should have been flowing out of me and allowed my outward appearance to dictate my inward mindset—all because I felt insecure about what I was wearing. Been there? Done that? It’s a miserable way to spend this beautiful life we’ve been given.
That day, when I was so miserable about the way I looked, it would have been easy to say that I wasn’t secure in who I was, that I lacked confidence. But confidence in what? Myself? My appearance?
Recently I came across this verse: “For the LORD will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being caught” (Prov. 3:26).
The message that screams at us through our iPhone speakers is that we should be confident in who we are, in what we look like, in how we feel. All around us we get the message that if we’re discontent with our appearance, we need more confidence in ourselves. But after reading that verse in Proverbs, I realized something that put an end to my pity party. Our problem isn’t lack of confidence; our problem is misplaced confidence. The truth is when we place our confidence in ourselves, we will always be disappointed.
There are days when my hair is frizzy or I step on the scale, and I’m discouraged by what I see. There are days when the lies of the world eat away at my soul, and I have come to the bottom of my strength.
You and I will be disappointed every time we make a mistake, because we’re human and we fail. But God never falls short. He does not fail. He is perfect and never makes a mistake. When we try to find confidence in ourselves (in our clear face, trim body, stylish outfits, or shiny hair) we’ll always end up hopeless and depressed because those things don’t last.
But when we place our confidence in Him, no matter the day, no matter what we feel like, we can still be confident because our confidence isn’t dependent on us and how we feel. It rests on our Maker, who never fails and never leaves. We can have confidence not because of what we’ve done or what we look like but because of who we are in Christ. That’s the kind of confidence that a bad wardrobe day can never take away.
What tends to shake your confidence? The next time your confidence is rattled, what truth from God’s Word do you plan to cling to?